i wish i never know YOU~

         Someone asked me, if u can turn back time what will u do? That’s a simple question but it had led my brain haywired, with all the possible answers. After a while, i came up with an answer , that i whispered softly in a little space  of my  heart, that  ‘i wish i never know YOU’.

         Thats a terrible answer, no doubt. It is the only way or  i will never forgive myself, coz i know i am the reason you suffering from love. I hope it’s helpful to tell you, im suffering too, maybe even more than you do.  sacrificing our friendship is never worth it, but we both agree its the best solution, at least, for now.

          I want you to know that you  are never stupid when loving someone. It’s a noble gift god gave to u, that ur heart is capable of love.   However, when we love someone does not mean we’ll always get them. Sometimes, it is enough to see  their happiness, regardless whoever share it with..

          Please stop blaming yourself, never consider it as a sin.  Truth hurts, but you have to let go.. u should know that i never plan this thing to happen, it just came.. honestly, i am truly blessed to have someone  care for me .. i am the one to be blamed, punished, suffered, not YOU...

          We both know  it’ll never be the same, me and you.  it is almost impossible to resume the friendship we had, although deep down i believe one day it will restored. I treasure all the bittersweet moment we spend together,  and promise that it will never be forgotten.  

          I wanted to apologize for how bad i had treated you. sincerely my intention was pure, i want you to move on..there’s plenty other choices out there, someone special that actually appreciate ur endless love... i am with another person, and i know u aware of it. I really love her, we are happy together. i didnt ask u to stay away from our life, but u deserve someone better.

          As time flies by, i hope it took all the pain u suffered away. i wish you the best. If only i had met u first, this story might end up differently. Maybe, only god knows, that  in another life, we are meant for each other...